The struggle is real. I find myself at wits end with the world and with myself. It’s so hard to keep up with everything and just survive some days. I know God is in control but sometimes that’s not comfort enough for the hardships and emotional pain that we have here on earth. I struggle with disappointing others. I want to see folks happy with me and be the provider and hero. The sad fact is I sometimes fail and in my insecurity I push my limits and make things worse by not having the courage to say “no” to the things that I don’t have the resources to do. Instead I borrow and make poor choices to make others happy and build a mountain of consequences to crush me later.
Amazingly God has bailed me out of my foolishness many times. Have I learned? Nope. I keep doing it over and over. I’m not sure how to get out of this cycle of destruction. I am praying for delivery.
Does anyone else struggle?
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