Surprise!

In my last post I said someone might stumble upon my blog and see what Christ has done for me. My quiet time this morning in Romans 5 talked about what Christ has done for me. So I sit here amazed that God loves me and that He sent Jesus to earth to live a perfect life and to die as a substitute for me so I can be reconciled to God. I look at that with my selfish sinner’s mind and I just don’t get it. I think to myself even now and think that if I were God that I wouldn’t save me. I’m not worth saving. I am not pity partying here I am just being brutally honest. I know the depth of my wretchedness. I am so amazed. I am saved from eternal separation from God but it is so much more than that. I have the Holy Spirit in me, which at first I really didn’t feel it that much but as I get older and circumstances have changed I really do hear and feel the prodding and the convicting of the spirit. I don’t always listen and I still fail often but I hear and know the truth of the law and that points me to Christ. All the more is the love and grace God pours out on me. I can’t explain this as it is personal. I see grace in the relationship with my wife and her love for me. I am learning to rest in the relationship I have with Christ and that He is enough. I am too influenced by the external factors in my life and need to trust in Him alone and know really know that He is God. (Psalm 46:10) I know that everything in my life has a purpose and that God takes care of me and is sovereign. Nothing happens that God doesn’t allow. I can rest in Him. In my quiet times with God I find myself asking Him to guide me but here lately I have asked Him to surprise me with something great. I have know idea what it will be. I find myself wondering if one of my little girls came to me and asked me to surprise them with something what would I give them and wow what will an omnipotent, all powerful, loving God give to His kids. I can’t wait to see.