As I thought about the title of this post I feel like a hypocrite. I deny Christ on a daily basis. I deny Him by my personal behavior, my thoughts and my silence. I lack the confidence in Christ that I say I desire. I say that I say because if I am being really honest with myself I don’t even really desire spiritual things. I am selfish and self-absorbed. I am not a good friend, father, husband or Christian. I am not pity-partying here. I am stating the facts. Grace…Grace…Grace, even in forgiveness I screw it up. I deny Christ by wallowing in my sin, I feel like I need to mourn over my sin for a while, like penance. Grace…Grace…Grace, I want to live with a Grace perspective. Wow, what would that be like. Relationships would be transformed. My family would be transformed. Grace compels love. my life needs love. I am so not loving it is embarrassing. Grace… Grace… Grace, now rest in it. This love takes a lifetime to internalize. Have you ever met a Christian that has lived a long time as a Christian and seen the confidence they have in Christ. It is beautiful and really cool to see that they have no problem sharing their faith and worry seems to be non-existent. They walk in belief of the Gospel. I still struggle with my unbelief. Grace… Grace… Grace, I write the word three time because I am just overwhelmed by the implications of it all and one time just isn’t enough time to fathom the meaning of the word. GRACE!
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