At church today I was struck how much I really enjoy worship. While worshiping I really see my sin. I don’t deserve to worship. I am broken by it and I it crushes me that God still loves me. Why God loves me I will never know. Grace sweet grace I need His grace. As the Holy Spirit works in my heart I am convicted by my sin. I find that when I really see God, like through worship I really see how disgusting I really am.
Larry,
I wanted let you know I think first the exercise of writing is never without merit. If no one else reads what you write I think it as you’ve said you done so often re-read and organize your thoughts.
We are so often lost in our culture, relationships and surroundings it’s one of the few times you get to be alone with your own thoughts. Hopefully in reviewing them you can really see what thoughts are authentically yours and not those of other people.
I also enjoy worship, it’s a time during service when you really are made to feel the awesomeness of God. In his presence you can’t help but feel lacking and undeserving.
Thank you Mequel I appreciate your comments. It still nice to be heard/read.